To be honest, going back to Hogwarts I'd hoped for something different there, with Hermione, I mean. I reckon it's not too difficult for you to be able figure out how I feel about her, reading back entries and maybe talking to Mr and Mrs Longbottom. It's more than just fancying her. I've carried a torch for her for years.
But that's another thing that just doesn't fit anymore: the hope that she'll finally turn around and notice me standing there, and suddenly realise that she feels the same way.
I've become convinced it's never going to happen. I didn't get this far by lying to myself and I don't want to start now. She doesn't feel the same as me. And I don't think she ever will, so there's not much point in even talking about it with her.
I think, deep down, that's what really made me leave Hogwarts in the end.
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Date: 2014-06-06 04:23 am (UTC)To be honest, going back to Hogwarts I'd hoped for something different there, with Hermione, I mean. I reckon it's not too difficult for you to be able figure out how I feel about her, reading back entries and maybe talking to Mr and Mrs Longbottom. It's more than just fancying her. I've carried a torch for her for years.
But that's another thing that just doesn't fit anymore: the hope that she'll finally turn around and notice me standing there, and suddenly realise that she feels the same way.
I've become convinced it's never going to happen. I didn't get this far by lying to myself and I don't want to start now. She doesn't feel the same as me. And I don't think she ever will, so there's not much point in even talking about it with her.
I think, deep down, that's what really made me leave Hogwarts in the end.